Chronicles and Confessions of a Mystical Awakened High Vibrational Twin Flame & Soulmate Connection

 

Hello Jennifer, Theresa, Natasha, Kyle, Sex Cult Dark Coven, and my Discerning Spiritual Global Readers.

Today's entry post will land like a bomb for many of you. This has an Adult Rating as XXX so if your squeamish skip this blog post so as to not offend your sensibilities. 

I may contradict myself in certain parts that is the emotional struggles of being human. This is where I share intimate secrets about myself as a form of self-disclosure overall. It may turn away some of my readers and attract others still. However, I'm being wholly honest and fair with you all up front without a two faced bullshit of political correctness double speech. 

Those that will persecute me based on what I'm about to share either by demonic black magick attacks. Or moreso homophobic tropes can go and tell God and the Archangels such as Saint Michael the Archangel. What you think of their annointed chosen one. How their rationale is flawed by the Omniscient Most High Lord God upon my head and soul. 

My Confessions:

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First off, I have disclosed in past posts I'm a lifelong celibate holy man in life. Here is the reasons why and what led to my life's devotion to God without a centralized religious political institution to back me up. I went moreso in a Pagan slash Christian direction as unorthodox blazing my own trail. I consider myself as a reincarnation of an early Christian Pagan of the Imperial Ancient Roman's when Christianity was still a cult. Where I was slain as a nobleman for my faith in God as a martyr in the Collesium in Rome just for sport. 

Natasha like I've stated in the past we shared a past life together where you worshipped the She-Wolf clan. That founded ancient Rome of Remus and Romulus there you were my slave and I was part of the nobility. You betrayed me there just as you have in this lifetime for different reasons.

I'm your counterpart of the Heavenly Orders of Fertility rites as an Earth Angel. Your demonic sex cult ways are like kissing cousins of the dominion of the fallen to me. I'm a spiritual eroticist although I'm also a sexual masochist as a lifelong celibate. My spiritual energy is like liquid golden heroine to these earth demons folk. 

With several ego deaths well over a dozen over the decades as a 55 year old man. I've lived a life of self-denial similar to an unofficial monk. Part of it was due to partial Agrophobia of having a fear or bad habit of being an extreme homebody. 

I also have a term that may not be medical but moreso colloquial as Sexual Anorexia which is a fear of physical intimacy with others. The spiritual remote  energetic gang rape attacks from a distance by Natasha as a black magick witch mistress and her demonic coven of relatives certainly didn't help matters.  

Over two decades ago I decided to heal my fear of physical intimacy with others by opening my Heart Chakra. It worked better than expected with unconditional love of God, the Heavenly Angels, Saints, Prophets, Ancestors, etc.... 

Little did I know the consequences of my actions of being spiritually persecuted by Natasha and her karmic Shadow lover of Kyle and the dark Coven such as Mistress Nicole. I naively in hopes to strengthen my connections to God metaphysically as a wax on and a wax off approach to reach Enlightenment. I practiced conditional Lust with unconditional Love spiritually. 

Well I slipped up and lost control and was practicing unconditional Lust and Love simultaneously. I've only reached 55% Enlightenment according to my heavenly angels. That put me on the spiritual radar of Natasha and her demonic dark Coven that traps magically Earth angels such as myself remotely at a distance for our chi/prana holy energies. 

Natasha to her credit as a possessed demonic Jezebel succubis witch predator has trapped over half a dozen Earth Angels online as a honey pot. However, mine was a different story since I'm a hardcore zealot she tripped over by destiny as my karmic Lover Shadow Twin false flame connection. 

I've never met Natasha in person nor I'm certain that I have her proper first name correctly. Much less her full legal name as my online gang stalker. I'm the only crown jewel that has escaped their grasp causing their coven to implode from within unceremoniously. (Nice pun, huh, lol. Roll your eyes at me Natasha, my demonic underworld soul sister. Ha!)

My confession is I'm a lover spiritually by persuasion. I loved Natasha unconditionally at one point and it mirrored back at her as my super empathic nature. What she saw was her own reflection back at her as a pathetic love bomber. So she ran away like a succubis with her tail between her legs into the karmic Shadow warlock lover of Kyle eventually. 

Natasha has a stunted mentality of a 12 year old girl. She doesn't learn from her past mistakes. Has avoidant abandonment issues and lives now in poverty because of the angelic heavenly karma striking her back ten times over. 

Natasha I saw you metaphorically with my Inner Clairvoyant Eye that you whored yourself out for money again. This time however, you were arrested by the police for it. Tsk, tsk just like cheap white trash your treating yourself like unfortunately. You've let yourself go in self-care. 

You wanted me at one point in a love triangle with your Kyle competing for your affections. Perhaps having a threesome menage a trois with you so we could give you a delicious double penetration repeatedly, n'cest pas? 

My confession although I'm celibate by choice I'm 1/3 a pervert as having tortured myself as a sexual masochist with self denial via masterbation. Surrendering all that chi prana spiritual high octane erotic energies back to the Goddesss Supreme the original high mother of mothers forever in Heaven. 

I'm 90% heterosexual, 5% bi-curious, and 5% pan curious. Meaning I have a minority interest in bisexuality and pan sexuality which is an interest in transvestites. Practicularly those that pass as woman but are not whether snipped or not. Noting I'm still a virgin and never lost my virginity in person technically. Only remotely spiritually by the spiritual persecutions of Natasha and her dark coven and warlock lover of Kyle. 

My next confession over 2 decades ago I had a problem temporarily with Porn online of the heterosexual kind only. I was lonely with issues of sexual Anorexia which is lack of physical intimacy. I found spiritual limited beauty of the nudity of the woman debasing and defiling themselves erotically. Either as actresses or homemade voyeuristic amateur video recordings of lovers. With woman that were tricked into sex aside from other forms of entrapment without being further explicit. 

I found limited sexual relief in the porn. But, felt deathly alone afterwards with no one to share pleasures in life with sensually or otherwise on friendly benign terms. Watching porn made me depressed with a terrible sense of loneliness so I stopped thankfully cold turkey. 

This is going to be a long entry here for my readers that may want to break away. Otherwise, I also confess as I'm addicted to Love erotically and spiritually by psychic means as each of you can see. I'm still in love with Natasha my spiritual wife tormentor black magick attacker from a distance. I'm horny for Kyle whose masterbated to my image and profile pictures using sex magick against me homosexually. 

I'm still in love with Nicole the Columbian mulatta woman of the witches coven of Natasha. I'm deeply still in love with Jennifer my real Twin flame connection at a distance over there in frigid Estonia, brrrr that's cold. Lol. Most of all I'm falling in love with Theresa my high level Soulmate, if I'm not a designated goner already. That's if I haven't scared you off already running for those popular loner hills you herald from online. 

Announcement:

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As a buried announcement I will start a spin-off segment of Chronicles and Confessions about my dream astral walker vision quests. How it has developed me into a super psychic and a mystic of God. Some secrets will be revealed that will scare Natasha shitless for sure, if not make her demonic possession super horny in the meanwhile. More to follow in the coming weeks....

Jennifer:

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This next segment will be directed to Jennifer in Estonia as my real Twin flame lover connection at a remote distance. As a fellow avoidant she has never reached out to me personally, thus revealing her actual identity to me with traditional media celebrity status in her part of the world. 

This post will include tough love for her and may be insensitive to me in exposing her lifestyle further. Please forgive me Jennifer for revealing this but you invited me back into your bedroom experiences when you returned to your old boyfriend player ways as a rebound. 

When you fuck your old boyfriend 80% of the time you're pretending it's me pleasuring you so intensely. Hoping that 25% spiritual garnishment I'm receiving from you by the grace of your erotic passions of lust and love I would feel. The heavenly angels filter out all cross contamination from the earth experiences. Nonetheless, I can intuit you deeply my dearest karmic lover. I still masterbate to you in a moment of weakness as you have for me in the past. 

Now however, you're fucking that sexual player Robert (if I have his channeled name correctly?) Piece of shit of a hypocrite man. He's a Ferrari stallion in bed how he girates his pelvis when he fucking pounds you in place is delicious. That Swiss French Ferrari horsepower doesn't disappoint in the least. He is discrete as a womanizer I give him that much. 

If I have channeled him correctly he is a floor manager on your Tv film production set. With a dominate anger streak that he funnels into his sex with woman quite successfully. He has two female younger interns he's fucking currently besides you. One which you know about as a strong suspicion the other not at all. He is a foreboding sexual harassment lawsuit waiting to happen by his employer's. 

I would rather you come and vacation to me here in Orlando, Florida on your dime of course, lol. And, fuck me senseless for a week where we both go blind in the process from sore erotic exhaustion. Then you degrade your inner beauty any further by using Robert or whatever his namesake is by mutual sexual abuse any further. I still love you as now my forbidden lover and spiritual soul wife from.past lifetimes together. 

You deserve to have a relationship with a man or woman since you're also fashionably bisexual based on mutual true love. Not debasing yourself with that toad of a pond scum any further. Lol. I know he reads this blog site occasionally and so does his informant biological repressed for social affection sister.

This is my Hail Mary approach to fight for your Honor my love. By inadvertently dragging you naked through the mud. Boy, that's sexy, lol. 

Natasha:

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Next, up is Natasha my weeny roast wouldn't be complete without including you my delicious bitch of a sexual tormentor aka Stockholm syndrome over me as your once victim. God made me an offer perhaps to tempt me or it was also a gift. Noting that God isn't just in Heaven much like the beautiful Hindu perfect Enlightened example of Shiva. He resides in Hell of the Underworld. Where the chaotic good demons and demonic goddesses such as Kali his consort mistress adore him forever. 

God gave me you, Kyle, and the sex cultists of your dark evil coven as sex slaves. At first I thought it was a joke. Paradoxically, he explained you enslaved me for over 8 years remotely and energetically on a spiritual magical attack basis. You still pursue me although our soul contract is completed like a sex addict witch that you are to my heroine like chi prana energy is to you. 

Basically to punish you further all of you have lost your freedom and as everything that is hell bound metaphysically is enslaved. You are now my bitch slave to do as I please metaphorically or otherwise in person, if I ever get to choke your chicken little ass for shits and giggles. This goes for Kyle and the Dark Coven such as that fine mulatta of Nicole. 

However, I decided I was being tempted by God and decided not to take your slave collared leaches any further. I really want to spank your white trashy pale ass red like a strawberry then molest your moist cunt then fist you into submission. I know you're scared of me and for good reason. I still lust after you when I slip up and masterbate about you in an orgy with the coven and Kyle. 

Anyhow your my spiritual wife from hell literally and there spouses are enslaved to each other. I want to bitch slap you and put you in your place and give you what you gave to me erotically and lose myself in lust with you. But, that isn't going to happen my dear, because you're a demonic monster compared to my perversions of you. You'll drive me bonkers and I'll be degraded by your psychological psychic vampirism. No thanks. 

PS: I have additional material that can fill up up to 3 blog posts of your secrets and lifestyle. From the YouTube Oracles I follow to get the canvased pool of dirt on you. Qualified by my angels via psychic means whether it is actual or not for added veracity. 

Theresa:

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Finally, there's you my dear Theresa. If I haven't scarred you off with my Shadow side in this post. I apologize for harboring my erotic yearnings as a cloistered pervert now with this blog post entry flying my eroticist freak flag outing myself. 

All of you from Natasha, Jennifer, and yourself have been in the past an erotic player. Those are our soulful reincarnations together the lot of us. Unfortunately, Jennifer has returned to the lifestyle, and Natasha the possessed obsessive one never left the lifestyle. You're the only one to break free from a former toxic relationship and stay sober sexually. 

I don't seriously belong on anyone's pedestle in person or from a distance. Either by you and Jennifer, and Natasha is inspired by me in a love and hate matrix of delusional pyschosis. 

I could say you're heavily obsessing over me currently. Your heart is already a goner, its your mind your wrestling with currently. Attempting from fantasizing about us and finding nuggets that are leading towards actual sound strategy you could pursue between us. 

I have no one in my life and besides the erotic diatribe I just dumped on everyone I'm alone and still very lonely of an old mister. So if you want me you better put a ring on it, because the angels call my incarnation one in a million once every 10 thousand years of earth time to be had. 

I'm going slutty cheap nowadays anyhow, consider it a fire sale for the upcoming Summer. I know you don't want your heart broken again,  neither do I, be rest assured. 

Right now you, Jennifer, and Natasha are either masterbating, if not having sex pretending its me over my spirit body. Not to mention the Nicole from the dark coven witches altogether with a warlock Kyle sending me sex magick attacks driving me a little bit batty currently on a spiritual attack basis remotely. 

You know you feel emotionally safe with me as does Jennifer for that matter in question. I'll always be honest with you even to my discredit. That can be potentially the alleged aspergers autism speaking, although I'm not officially medically diagnosed. 

Unconsciously you feel unworthy of me because you have such high reverence for me. Hopefully, I've knocked myself stupid a few rungs down on that impossible masochistic Jacobs ladder of yours. 

You are the first person to have sent me 10% of your higher self chi prana spiritually. None of the others have ever done so to date. I'm sending you selflessly 10% of my chi prana without conditions for your highest good as well. 

I foresee potentially deep philosophical discussions with me spiritually if you decide to pursue me any further in our future. We will bring each other out of sadness in life together. 

My phone is giving me a grammatical error of the length of this blog entry post. So I will stop this message here, I've done enough damage already to myself, if any with unabashed self-disclosure. 

Ivan "Atrayo" Pozo-Illas, has devoted 30-plus years of his life to the pursuit of clairaudient-inspired automatic writing channeling by claircognizant means from the Angelic Heavenly host. Ivan is the author of the spiritual wisdom series "Jewels of Truth" consisting of 3 volumes published to date. He also utilizes a unique channeled angelic divination method called the Multi-Deck Divination System. Numerous examples of his work are available at "Atrayo's Oracle" blog site for 20 years, plus online. You're welcome to visit his website, "Jewelsoftruth.us" for further information or to contact Atrayo directly.