Hello Jennifer, Theresa, Natasha, Kyle, Sex Cult Dark Coven, and my Discerning Spiritual Global Readers.
Today's entry post will land like a bomb for many of you. This has an Adult Rating as XXX so if your squeamish skip this blog post so as to not offend your sensibilities.
I may contradict myself in certain parts that is the emotional struggles of being human. This is where I share intimate secrets about myself as a form of self-disclosure overall. It may turn away some of my readers and attract others still. However, I'm being wholly honest and fair with you all up front without a two faced bullshit of political correctness double speech.
Those that will persecute me based on what I'm about to share either by demonic black magick attacks. Or moreso homophobic tropes can go and tell God and the Archangels such as Saint Michael the Archangel. What you think of their annointed chosen one. How their rationale is flawed by the Omniscient Most High Lord God upon my head and soul.
First off, I have disclosed in past posts I'm a lifelong celibate holy man in life. Here is the reasons why and what led to my life's devotion to God without a centralized religious political institution to back me up. I went moreso in a Pagan slash Christian direction as unorthodox blazing my own trail. I consider myself as a reincarnation of an early Christian Pagan of the Imperial Ancient Roman's when Christianity was still a cult. Where I was slain as a nobleman for my faith in God as a martyr in the Collesium in Rome just for sport.
Natasha like I've stated in the past we shared a past life together where you worshipped the She-Wolf clan. That founded ancient Rome of Remus and Romulus there you were my slave and I was part of the nobility. You betrayed me there just as you have in this lifetime for different reasons.
I'm your counterpart of the Heavenly Orders of Fertility rites as an Earth Angel. Your demonic sex cult ways are like kissing cousins of the dominion of the fallen to me. I'm a spiritual eroticist although I'm also a sexual masochist as a lifelong celibate. My spiritual energy is like liquid golden heroine to these earth demons folk.
With several ego deaths well over a dozen over the decades as a 55 year old man. I've lived a life of self-denial similar to an unofficial monk. Part of it was due to partial Agrophobia of having a fear or bad habit of being an extreme homebody.
I also have a term that may not be medical but moreso colloquial as Sexual Anorexia which is a fear of physical intimacy with others. The spiritual remote energetic gang rape attacks from a distance by Natasha as a black magick witch mistress and her demonic coven of relatives certainly didn't help matters.
Over two decades ago I decided to heal my fear of physical intimacy with others by opening my Heart Chakra. It worked better than expected with unconditional love of God, the Heavenly Angels, Saints, Prophets, Ancestors, etc....
Little did I know the consequences of my actions of being spiritually persecuted by Natasha and her karmic Shadow lover of Kyle and the dark Coven such as Mistress Nicole. I naively in hopes to strengthen my connections to God metaphysically as a wax on and a wax off approach to reach Enlightenment. I practiced conditional Lust with unconditional Love spiritually.
Well I slipped up and lost control and was practicing unconditional Lust and Love simultaneously. I've only reached 55% Enlightenment according to my heavenly angels. That put me on the spiritual radar of Natasha and her demonic dark Coven that traps magically Earth angels such as myself remotely at a distance for our chi/prana holy energies.
Natasha to her credit as a possessed demonic Jezebel succubis witch predator has trapped over half a dozen Earth Angels online. However, mine was a different story since I'm a hardcore zealot she tripped over by destiny as my karmic Lover Shadow Twin false flame connection.
I've never met Natasha in person nor I'm certain that I have her proper first name correctly. Much less her full legal name as my online gang stalker. I'm the only escaped crown jewel that has escaped their grasp causing their coven to implode from within unceremoniously. (Nice pun, huh, lol. Roll your eyes at me Natasha, my demonic underworld soul sister. Ha!)
My confession is I'm a lover spiritually by persuasion. I loved Natasha unconditionally at one point and it mirrored back at her as my super empathic nature. What she saw was her own reflection back at her as a pathetic love bomber. So she ran away like a succubis with her tail between her legs into the karmic Shadow warlock lover of Kyle eventually.
Natasha has a stunted mentality of a 12 year old girl. She doesn't learn from her past mistakes. Has avoidant abandoned issues and lives now in poverty because of the angelic heavenly karma striking her back ten times over.
Natasha I saw you metaphorically with my Inner Eye that you whored yourself out for money again. This time however, you were arrested by the police for it. Tsk, tsk just like cheap white trash your treating yourself like unfortunately. You've let yourself go in self-care.
You wanted me at one point in a love triangle with your Kyle competing for your affections. Perhaps having a threesome menage a trois with you so we could give you a delicious double penetration repeatedly, n'cest pas?
My confession although I'm celibate by choice I'm 1/3 a pervert as having tortured myself as a sexual masochist with self denial via masterbation. Surrendering all that chi prana spiritual high octane erotic energies back to the Goddesss Supreme the original high mother of mothers forever in Heaven.
I'm 90% heterosexual, 5% bi-curious, and 5% pan curious. Meaning I have a minority interest in bisexuality and pan sexuality which is an interest in transvestites. Practicularly those that pass as woman but are not whether snipped or not. Noting I'm still a virgin and never lost my virginity in person technically. Only remotely spiritually by the spiritual persecutions of Natasha and her dark coven and warlock lover of Kyle.
My next confession over 2 decades ago I had a problem temporarily with Porn online of the heterosexual kind only. I was lonely with issues of sexual Anorexia which is lack of physical intimacy. I found spiritual limited beauty of the nudity of the woman debasing and defiling themselves erotically. Either as actresses or homemade voyeuristic amateur video recordings of lovers. Aside woman that were tricked into sex aside from other forms of entrapment without bring further explicit.
I found limited sexual relief in the porn. But, felt deathly alone afterwards with no one to share pleasures in life with sensually or otherwise on friendly benign terms. Watching porn made me depressed with a terrible sense of loneliness so I stopped thankfully cold turkey.
This is going to be a long entry here for my readers that may want to break away. Otherwise, I also confess as I'm addicted to Love erotically and spiritually by psychic means as each of you can see. I'm still in love with Natasha my spiritual wife tormentor black magick attacker from a distance. I'm horny for Kyle whose masterbated to my image and profile pictures using sex magick against me homosexually.
I'm still in love with Nicole the Columbian mulatta woman of the witches coven of Natasha. I'm deeply still in love with Jennifer my real Twin flame connection at a distance over there in frigid Estonia, brrrr that's cold. Lol. Most of all I'm falling in love with Theresa my high level Soulmate if I'm not a designated goner already. That's if I haven't scared you off already running for those popular loner hills you herald from online.
As a buried announcement I will start a spin-off segment of Chronicles and Confessions about my dream astral walker vision quests. How it has developed me into a super psychic and a mystic of God. Some secrets will be revealed that will scare Natasha shitless for sure, if not make her demonic possession super horny in the meanwhile. More to follow in the coming weeks....
This next segment will be directed to Jennifer in Estonia as my real Twin flame lover connection at a remote distance. As a fellow avoidant she has never reached out to me personally, thus revealing her actual identity to me with traditional media celebrity status in her part of the world.
This post will include tough love for her and may be insensitive to me in exposing her lifestyle further.
The following remarks will be posted shortly regarding her quality of life pursuits.
(Posted as new content with subsequent edits as necessary.)